That Nervy Feeling Again

I have that feeling again. The one that says don’t walk in the door. Call and cancel. I think maybe I should call and cancel. I just can’t handle being around someone who can see right through me again. I feel so fragile. Maybe it’s my dads surgery coming up in 5 days. I don’t know what I’m stepping into with that one. Maybe it’s going off the medication. I felt fine until this week. Actually, I felt that high again on Monday. It felt soooo good. Now, I can’t stop crying and the fear of going in to see my therapist tomorrow is overwhelming me. I have to email him and tell him this! I wan’t to cancel so bad! I need to be talked down off the cliff again.